Rejection

“But he said to me. “My grace is sufficient for you; my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV

Let me tell you something, I am scared of rejection. The thought of someone, not liking my ideas, suggestions or even worse not liking me, puts me into panic mode. It gets so bad sometimes that I have failed to go to a job interview, or witness to a person that needs to hear about God or step out of disobedience to God’s voice. Am I the only one in this boat?

Rejection is just plain nasty. It is an ugly monster that rears its ugly head up to intimidate us. It makes us bring things to the surface that was hidden deep in our soul that traumatized us years and years ago.

I remember when I was a child I was always rejected to be on picked for a team at recess. I was an overweight child and not very athletic so no one wanted me on their team. I remember crying on the playground because all I ever wanted was to be wanted. I still struggle with this today. Every time I don’t get the invite, every time I get told my idea won’t work, every time someone corrects me about my attitudes (believe me I have plenty that God is still working on) it takes me back to that little girl on the playground.

Don’t we all desire acceptance? We all crave the affirmation of others. Satan knows this and uses that against us to make us think we are not worth anything. He is after all here to kill, steal and destroy.  He knows if he can steal our self-worth then he can use our past hurts and fears against us. He can make us weak!!

Jesus tells us differently. He tells us “His grace is sufficient. In the amplified bible it adds: My loving-kindness’, My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation.” He is more than enough. He also tells us that “His power is made perfect in weakness.” It is in our weakest time, that God’s power is revealed.

Rejection isn’t fun but we know that our Creator will never abandon us. We will always be His top pick. It is through Him that we can remain strong in our weakest points of life. Our past rejections can give way to the power and strength shown through us by Jesus if we just give it all to Him.

 

 

 

Caught with Salt in Our Mouths

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Caught with Salt in Our Mouths

 “ With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. 10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. 11 Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12 My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.” James 3:9-12

 

I remember when I was little my Mom would say something nice about me then turn around and in the same breath criticize me. I didn’t understand how I could be a good girl but have all these bad traits. For me it was either black or white there was no gray area. Either I was a good person or a bad person. I still think that I am like that to this day, and thus, have a hard time when people try to give me positive criticism. I must admit though there has been times that I was caught with salt in my mouth. I am guilty!!

God is like that in the same way. He is black and white God. Either what comes from us is positivity or it is negativity. We can spring forth fresh water living water that encourages our brothers and sisters in Christ or nasty sea water that’s bitter and leaves a bad taste in their mouths. What about those that don’t know Christ? Does what we say (especially statements on social media) bring forth that fresh water that reflects the living water of Jesus Christ? Do we claim to have fresh living water in us, but spit out nasty salt water as many times as we do the other? We must always remember that our words are weapons, they can hurt, they can encourage, and they are the very essence of what we are thinking.

Lord I want my words to be fresh; I want them to reflect you, the God who has the endless stream of fresh
living water.

It’s not who we WERE but who we are BECOMING

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It has been a while since I’ve wrote anything in my blog but,  God has been pressing on my heart to get back to it. Blogging for me is not just therapy (which everyone that knows me knows how bad I need therapy) but it is also a way that I can minister to others and tell them about the good news and that news is that Jesus loves you!

The Empty Tomb

20 Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance. So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”So Peter and the other disciple started for the tomb. Both were running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. He bent over and looked in at the strips of linen lying there but did not go in. Then Simon Peter came along behind him and went straight into the tomb. He saw the strips of linen lying there, as well as the cloth that had been wrapped around Jesus’ head. The cloth was still lying in its place, separate from the linen. Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed(They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.) 10 Then the disciples went back to where they were staying.

Jesus Appears to Mary Magdalene

11 Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb 12 and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot. 13 They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?” “They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” 14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus. 15 He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?” Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.” She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”). 17 Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’” 18 Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: “I have seen the Lord!” And she told them that he had said these things to her.

This Sunday is Palm Sunday and kicks off Holy Week. Easter is a wonderful day indeed. Jesus my Lord and Savior rose from the grave proving that He was Lord and the Messiah. But Easter also has another meaning to me. Easter 2012, was the day that I broke loose those chains and weights that were holding me down. Easter 2012 was the day I became free, the day I became alive again. All that hurt and pain from my past was gone and I became new again. Christ freed me of guilt, shame, grief, hurt, anger, depression and so many other things I kept hidden deep inside. Because a man, who I never met, let Himself be abused, beaten, then nailed on a cross till He died just for me, I can say that I am finally free to live. His love changed me that day.

I am different than I was the day before Easter 2012. I am not perfect. I am human and I still fail Him on a daily basis. At the beginning of 2014 my motto was “Don’t just believe in God but Believe God” that has now changed.  God keeps evolving me into the creature He wants me to be.  Every day my old self dies and my new self appears. Every day I get closer and closer to what He wants for me. With every metamorphous I have, God’s destiny for my life unfolds.

Jesus love was not mine alone, He died for all of us. This Easter remember that through His death we might live in freedom. When Jesus was resurrected from the dead so were we. Through His love and Grace we can become a new being, a person fully alive. Through shedding of His blood our old self, our old hurts, our old ways (thank God for His forgiveness) have become white as snow. So take heed to me new motto and use it. Take a hold of this freedom we have in Christ. Remember: It’s not who we were, but who we are becoming

 

 

 

 

Revenge not Taken

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Psalms 64

1Hear me, my God, as I voice my complaint;

protect my life from the threat of the enemy.
2Hide me from the conspiracy of the wicked,
from the plots of evildoers.
3They sharpen their tongues like swords
and aim cruel words like deadly arrows.
4They shoot from ambush at the innocent;
they shoot suddenly, without fear.
5They encourage each other in evil plans,
they talk about hiding their snares;
they say, “Who will see it?”
6They plot injustice and say,
“We have devised a perfect plan!”
Surely the human mind and heart are cunning.
7But God will shoot them with his arrows;
they will suddenly be struck down.
8He will turn their own tongues against them
and bring them to ruin;
all who see them will shake their heads in scorn.
9All people will fear;
they will proclaim the works of God
and ponder what he has done.
10The righteous will rejoice in the Lord
and take refuge in him;
all the upright in heart will glory in him!
In this Chapter of Psalms, we see David crying out to God. Saul was after him and he was hiding in the desert. If don’t know the story, The Israelites decided that they no longer needed a prophet but a King to rule over them. Samuel prayed for God to show him who should be the new King. Samuel anointed Saul as King of Israel. But as with most kings, Saul let all that power go to his head. Saul had the idea that David was after his crown so he went after David. David fled to the wilderness to escape Saul.
David could of fought Saul and killed him, but he knew that Saul was God’s appointed one. David was so close to Saul at one time, that he cut a piece of his robe off.
Ok so back to my point. How many times in our life do we feel like the enemy is attacking us. Recently I have been having an issue at work with some co-workers. They have it out for me. I have no clue why. The first thin that comes to my mind is how can I get them back. That nasty R word pops into my head. Revenge is such and evil thing. In the end everyone gets hurt. The more I simmered on the issue, the more God talked to my spirit. God led me to this chapter. David, as I said, could of killed Saul very easy. But, he decided to lay it in God’s hands. God spoke to my spirit and told me that He is the God of justice and He will protect His people.
I am not saying that will be easy to do. I want to go and tell my supervisor that these girls are not being nice to me. If I do that am I trusting God’s promise? I am a child of the Most High. What daddy will let injustice come to their child?
Prayer: Lord I can’t defend myself alone. I lay this situation and these people in your hands. i have the promise that You will defend me and protect me. I praise you my God. In Jesus name Amen.

Wintertime Blahs/Spring Blooms!!!

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I don’t know about you guys but this winter has just got me down. I am tired of the snow and cold. My body aches and I have no energy.There are just some days it seems like a task to just get up out of bed and get moving. The alarm goes off and we throw the covers back and it takes every it of energy we have to get up and get moving. Christians sometimes have that “if I can just make it through the winter” attitude in their spirit. We pray less, read our bible less, and feel like God is that alarm clock dragging us out of bed or that bone chilling air and snow that is piled up outside, keeping us from walking into the sunshine that we all draw energy from. So we try all these things to enlighten us.

God has gave us a promise though in Isaiah 40:31

Isaiah 40:31 “But those who hope in the lord will renew their strength”.

Ah! renewed strength. Our Heavenly Father insures us that even though we may go through that dark, cold, wet winter of life that there is always a promise of spring, a renewal of energy and of hope. Just like the rose buds that begin to open up and bloom when spring comes, God promises if you wait on Him, your spiritual springtime will happen! He has gave us His heavenly Sonshine to lighten our loads and give us a bright future! When we bask in the Son’s rays,we can be assured that hope will bloom eternal! Thank you Jesus!

Swelling with Pride!!!!

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Today was a beautiful day in Kansas City. The sun was shining and the birds were singing. I had Hunter, my grandson, for the day so Nana took him to the park. This was his first trip to the park and to see the laughter on his face and how much he loved the swings just brought joy to my heart.

I remember how I used to look into my children’s eyes when they were little. I had so much hope and promise that this world was going to be a better place because they were in it. I see that same hope and promise in my grandson’s eyes. My heart begins to swell just thinking about it.

We give our Heavenly Father that same feeling of hope and promise. When He looks down on us and we are obeying His word and doing His work, I think His heart swells just like mine did today. Colossians 3:12 states “Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience”.

He adores and loves us just like I do my grandson Hunter. He wants the best for us because He knows that we deserve the best. We are His children. But, He also wants us to give our best back to others in His name. He wants us to give others the love, compassion and understanding that He has shown to us. I will be the first to admit, sometimes that is hard to do when you just don’t as they say “feel the love”. But see that’s when Daddy God is proud off us the most because it is in that time that we are doing it entirely for Him and through Him, because we can do nothing without Him.

He’s Got Our Backs!!

Sometimes when everything in the world is not going our way we tend to forget who is on our side. I have been through so many obstacles in my life and i have overcome them but still, even today i forget. Today is my performance evaluation at work. I will have to admit i am scared. I am scared that there has been something that I have done that will make me look like a failure. I am scared I have let my boss and fellow employees down. I am scared that I will get rejected. After all in my thinking I am never measuring up.

But a sweet, dear friend of mine reminded me today that I have this side to my personality that is like a little kid and always worrying i am not giving or doing enough. This got me to thinking. So I got into God’s word.  In my bible study we are learning about Moses and the Israelites. When Moses was leading God’s people out and away from Pharaoh he put up several shields to protect them. Let’s take a look back go to Exodus Chapter . As they were leaving, the bible told us that God used a pillar of cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night to keep them safe. Psalms 39:5  says “God is there before us and behind us”.  Hebrews 13:5 says “Never will I leave you or forsake you”

Wow when I read all he did to keep his people safe and protected and how he is always there with us protecting us and finding favor in us then why should I ever doubt His promises again? I am now going into my meeting with positivity.

Remember you are a child of the Most High, King of Kings. El Elyon-The Most High God, Jehovah-Shamma, the all present Lord, and Jehovah Jireh, the provider of His people.