Rejection

“But he said to me. “My grace is sufficient for you; my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 ESV

Let me tell you something, I am scared of rejection. The thought of someone, not liking my ideas, suggestions or even worse not liking me, puts me into panic mode. It gets so bad sometimes that I have failed to go to a job interview, or witness to a person that needs to hear about God or step out of disobedience to God’s voice. Am I the only one in this boat?

Rejection is just plain nasty. It is an ugly monster that rears its ugly head up to intimidate us. It makes us bring things to the surface that was hidden deep in our soul that traumatized us years and years ago.

I remember when I was a child I was always rejected to be on picked for a team at recess. I was an overweight child and not very athletic so no one wanted me on their team. I remember crying on the playground because all I ever wanted was to be wanted. I still struggle with this today. Every time I don’t get the invite, every time I get told my idea won’t work, every time someone corrects me about my attitudes (believe me I have plenty that God is still working on) it takes me back to that little girl on the playground.

Don’t we all desire acceptance? We all crave the affirmation of others. Satan knows this and uses that against us to make us think we are not worth anything. He is after all here to kill, steal and destroy.  He knows if he can steal our self-worth then he can use our past hurts and fears against us. He can make us weak!!

Jesus tells us differently. He tells us “His grace is sufficient. In the amplified bible it adds: My loving-kindness’, My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation.” He is more than enough. He also tells us that “His power is made perfect in weakness.” It is in our weakest time, that God’s power is revealed.

Rejection isn’t fun but we know that our Creator will never abandon us. We will always be His top pick. It is through Him that we can remain strong in our weakest points of life. Our past rejections can give way to the power and strength shown through us by Jesus if we just give it all to Him.

 

 

 

Revenge not Taken

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Psalms 64

1Hear me, my God, as I voice my complaint;

protect my life from the threat of the enemy.
2Hide me from the conspiracy of the wicked,
from the plots of evildoers.
3They sharpen their tongues like swords
and aim cruel words like deadly arrows.
4They shoot from ambush at the innocent;
they shoot suddenly, without fear.
5They encourage each other in evil plans,
they talk about hiding their snares;
they say, “Who will see it?”
6They plot injustice and say,
“We have devised a perfect plan!”
Surely the human mind and heart are cunning.
7But God will shoot them with his arrows;
they will suddenly be struck down.
8He will turn their own tongues against them
and bring them to ruin;
all who see them will shake their heads in scorn.
9All people will fear;
they will proclaim the works of God
and ponder what he has done.
10The righteous will rejoice in the Lord
and take refuge in him;
all the upright in heart will glory in him!
In this Chapter of Psalms, we see David crying out to God. Saul was after him and he was hiding in the desert. If don’t know the story, The Israelites decided that they no longer needed a prophet but a King to rule over them. Samuel prayed for God to show him who should be the new King. Samuel anointed Saul as King of Israel. But as with most kings, Saul let all that power go to his head. Saul had the idea that David was after his crown so he went after David. David fled to the wilderness to escape Saul.
David could of fought Saul and killed him, but he knew that Saul was God’s appointed one. David was so close to Saul at one time, that he cut a piece of his robe off.
Ok so back to my point. How many times in our life do we feel like the enemy is attacking us. Recently I have been having an issue at work with some co-workers. They have it out for me. I have no clue why. The first thin that comes to my mind is how can I get them back. That nasty R word pops into my head. Revenge is such and evil thing. In the end everyone gets hurt. The more I simmered on the issue, the more God talked to my spirit. God led me to this chapter. David, as I said, could of killed Saul very easy. But, he decided to lay it in God’s hands. God spoke to my spirit and told me that He is the God of justice and He will protect His people.
I am not saying that will be easy to do. I want to go and tell my supervisor that these girls are not being nice to me. If I do that am I trusting God’s promise? I am a child of the Most High. What daddy will let injustice come to their child?
Prayer: Lord I can’t defend myself alone. I lay this situation and these people in your hands. i have the promise that You will defend me and protect me. I praise you my God. In Jesus name Amen.

Wintertime Blahs/Spring Blooms!!!

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I don’t know about you guys but this winter has just got me down. I am tired of the snow and cold. My body aches and I have no energy.There are just some days it seems like a task to just get up out of bed and get moving. The alarm goes off and we throw the covers back and it takes every it of energy we have to get up and get moving. Christians sometimes have that “if I can just make it through the winter” attitude in their spirit. We pray less, read our bible less, and feel like God is that alarm clock dragging us out of bed or that bone chilling air and snow that is piled up outside, keeping us from walking into the sunshine that we all draw energy from. So we try all these things to enlighten us.

God has gave us a promise though in Isaiah 40:31

Isaiah 40:31 “But those who hope in the lord will renew their strength”.

Ah! renewed strength. Our Heavenly Father insures us that even though we may go through that dark, cold, wet winter of life that there is always a promise of spring, a renewal of energy and of hope. Just like the rose buds that begin to open up and bloom when spring comes, God promises if you wait on Him, your spiritual springtime will happen! He has gave us His heavenly Sonshine to lighten our loads and give us a bright future! When we bask in the Son’s rays,we can be assured that hope will bloom eternal! Thank you Jesus!

He’s Got Our Backs!!

Sometimes when everything in the world is not going our way we tend to forget who is on our side. I have been through so many obstacles in my life and i have overcome them but still, even today i forget. Today is my performance evaluation at work. I will have to admit i am scared. I am scared that there has been something that I have done that will make me look like a failure. I am scared I have let my boss and fellow employees down. I am scared that I will get rejected. After all in my thinking I am never measuring up.

But a sweet, dear friend of mine reminded me today that I have this side to my personality that is like a little kid and always worrying i am not giving or doing enough. This got me to thinking. So I got into God’s word.  In my bible study we are learning about Moses and the Israelites. When Moses was leading God’s people out and away from Pharaoh he put up several shields to protect them. Let’s take a look back go to Exodus Chapter . As they were leaving, the bible told us that God used a pillar of cloud by day and a pillar of fire by night to keep them safe. Psalms 39:5  says “God is there before us and behind us”.  Hebrews 13:5 says “Never will I leave you or forsake you”

Wow when I read all he did to keep his people safe and protected and how he is always there with us protecting us and finding favor in us then why should I ever doubt His promises again? I am now going into my meeting with positivity.

Remember you are a child of the Most High, King of Kings. El Elyon-The Most High God, Jehovah-Shamma, the all present Lord, and Jehovah Jireh, the provider of His people.

All You Need is Love

Love%201%20Corinthians%2013%2013Yesterday I went to the funeral of my friend’s 19 year old brother. He was a god Godly man, he was doing the right things in his life and for no apparent reason he was gunned down and killed. As I sat there listening to the eulogy, and all the nice things everyone said about him, I can’t help think, what is this world coming too. There is so much hate.

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 gives us all an example of what God expects of us. Especially of Christians  “If I speak in tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love I am only a resounding gong or a clanging symbol. If I have gift or prophecy and can fathom all mysteries, and all knowledge, and I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I can boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.”

Wow, God tells us that we can be the best that we can be, we can help the poor, sing the most beautiful song, work in the church fervently in every ministry(I know you servants are out there cause I am one), and it all be for nothing if deep down you don’t have love in your heart.

So reading these words I ponder these thoughts:

Did the person who shot this young man, or the person who shot those kids in CT. ever see love in his life? The person at work that you can’t stand to be around, that has caused you so much strife, do you love them? Do you show them kindness and pray for them? That ex husband/wife that just won’t let it go, that causes you heartache all over again. Do you pray for them? I know these things seem impossible. You can easily love someone that you don’t know or someone that hasn’t affected your life. I understand how hard it is. It took me eight years to stop hating my ex husband. I now love him but love him in a Godly way. I pray for him and want God to bless him.

It wasn’t easy for me. It is hard to get to the point where we can love our enemies. Remember though, we can’t do it. We can only let God change us enough and allow Him to do it for us. So, the first step we can take to change the world is ours.

I challenge you to go up to someone that you don’t like and say to them ” I know we have had issues but I want you to know God loves you and so do I and I will be praying for you. See how they react, see how their face changes. Notice the difference it will make. Let your life be a proof for His love.

Made Perfect for Him

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In two weeks I will hit 45. I look in the mirror and I see an older woman looking back at me. For years I have struggled with my self image. I still do today. I was always the chunky girl in school. How many times did I hear “Carolyn you have such a pretty face, if you just lose some weight you would be such a beauty.”  These words didn’t come from strangers, I could of handled that. These words came from my family. The people that I wanted to love me more than anyone in my life. Those words have stuck with me my entire life. They made me feel that I could never measure up. It affected my social life, it affected my marriage and it affected the way I feel about myself.

How can we not, as women, think that what people see on the outside is what is important. The media exploits women in saying you have to be a certain body size or look to be considered beautiful. Woman of God, remember where you come from. We are daughters of the King. Children of the most high. If the saying is beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Let’s take  look at our what Father God considers beautiful.

1 Peter 3:3-4 “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes, rather it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of  gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.”

Is this saying that we shouldn’t fix our hair or wear makeup or jewelry. I personally don’t think so. What I think this verse is saying is that we need to focus on what we look like through our inner self. Are we beautiful on the inside? Are we kind to others? Are we compassionate? Are we women that follow after Jesus own heart?  I know you are thinking but Carolyn, how can I do that when I feel so bad about myself?  I know it is hard. It is a constant struggle I deal with everyday myself.  I love The Messages version of Ezekiel 16:8-14 it says:

“‘I came by again and saw you, saw that you were ready for love and a lover. I took care of you, dressed you and protected you. I promised you my love and entered the covenant of marriage with you. I, God, the Master, gave my word. You became mine. I gave you a good bath, washing off all that old blood, and anointed you with aromatic oils. I dressed you in a colorful gown and put leather sandals on your feet. I gave you linen blouses and a fashionable wardrobe of expensive clothing. I adorned you with jewelry: I placed bracelets on your wrists, fitted you out with a necklace, emerald rings, sapphire earrings, and a diamond tiara. You were provided with everything precious and beautiful: with exquisite clothes and elegant food, garnished with honey and oil. You were absolutely stunning. You were a queen! You became world-famous, a legendary beauty brought to perfection by my adornments. Decree of God, the Master.

I LOVE THIS!!! Don’t you get it. In the world we may not be perfect but through Jesus and His love, we became Queens, we became perfect… We are stunning!!! Why because Our Lord and Savior is perfect and He created us in His Image!!!  Praise God!!!!! Hold on to this.. take this into your heart… Let us all quit trying to please the world’s idea of beauty and focus on the One that made us perfect. It is then that you will shine. After all isn’t He the one we need to please most?

I hate waiting!!!

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31 But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.

It is really hard for me to wait. I am not a patient person at all. When I was out looking for a job and got rejection after rejection, I cried out to God why? Here I was homeless, no money for gas, no money for food and God knew I needed a job but I was getting one. I have to admit. There were times I got angry at God. I shouted out at Him maybe even cussed at Him. I was desperate.

But Isaiah 40:31 doesn’t just tell us to wait, It gives us a promise from God that our strength will be renewed. We will not be weary or faint just by letting God do it in his time. That is hard to do when you feel desperate.

I waited and waited. All the time praying God you know my needs, I am trusting in your promise. A year later almost to the day I lost my job God gave me the perfect job. I love my job and I know that it is a job that is according to God’s perfect will.

I don’t know what each of you are going through. I do know that this world is a mess right now and unemployment is high. Maybe you are waiting on your marriage to heal or a sick loved one to get better. Don’t give up. God knows what he is doing in this situation. He has a plan. And while you are waiting, remember the strength will be provided by Him.