Wintertime Blahs/Spring Blooms!!!


I don’t know about you guys but this winter has just got me down. I am tired of the snow and cold. My body aches and I have no energy.There are just some days it seems like a task to just get up out of bed and get moving. The alarm goes off and we throw the covers back and it takes every it of energy we have to get up and get moving. Christians sometimes have that “if I can just make it through the winter” attitude in their spirit. We pray less, read our bible less, and feel like God is that alarm clock dragging us out of bed or that bone chilling air and snow that is piled up outside, keeping us from walking into the sunshine that we all draw energy from. So we try all these things to enlighten us.

God has gave us a promise though in Isaiah 40:31

Isaiah 40:31 “But those who hope in the lord will renew their strength”.

Ah! renewed strength. Our Heavenly Father insures us that even though we may go through that dark, cold, wet winter of life that there is always a promise of spring, a renewal of energy and of hope. Just like the rose buds that begin to open up and bloom when spring comes, God promises if you wait on Him, your spiritual springtime will happen! He has gave us His heavenly Sonshine to lighten our loads and give us a bright future! When we bask in the Son’s rays,we can be assured that hope will bloom eternal! Thank you Jesus!

Swelling with Pride!!!!


Today was a beautiful day in Kansas City. The sun was shining and the birds were singing. I had Hunter, my grandson, for the day so Nana took him to the park. This was his first trip to the park and to see the laughter on his face and how much he loved the swings just brought joy to my heart.

I remember how I used to look into my children’s eyes when they were little. I had so much hope and promise that this world was going to be a better place because they were in it. I see that same hope and promise in my grandson’s eyes. My heart begins to swell just thinking about it.

We give our Heavenly Father that same feeling of hope and promise. When He looks down on us and we are obeying His word and doing His work, I think His heart swells just like mine did today. Colossians 3:12 states “Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience”.

He adores and loves us just like I do my grandson Hunter. He wants the best for us because He knows that we deserve the best. We are His children. But, He also wants us to give our best back to others in His name. He wants us to give others the love, compassion and understanding that He has shown to us. I will be the first to admit, sometimes that is hard to do when you just don’t as they say “feel the love”. But see that’s when Daddy God is proud off us the most because it is in that time that we are doing it entirely for Him and through Him, because we can do nothing without Him.

All You Need is Love

Love%201%20Corinthians%2013%2013Yesterday I went to the funeral of my friend’s 19 year old brother. He was a god Godly man, he was doing the right things in his life and for no apparent reason he was gunned down and killed. As I sat there listening to the eulogy, and all the nice things everyone said about him, I can’t help think, what is this world coming too. There is so much hate.

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 gives us all an example of what God expects of us. Especially of Christians  “If I speak in tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love I am only a resounding gong or a clanging symbol. If I have gift or prophecy and can fathom all mysteries, and all knowledge, and I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I can boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.”

Wow, God tells us that we can be the best that we can be, we can help the poor, sing the most beautiful song, work in the church fervently in every ministry(I know you servants are out there cause I am one), and it all be for nothing if deep down you don’t have love in your heart.

So reading these words I ponder these thoughts:

Did the person who shot this young man, or the person who shot those kids in CT. ever see love in his life? The person at work that you can’t stand to be around, that has caused you so much strife, do you love them? Do you show them kindness and pray for them? That ex husband/wife that just won’t let it go, that causes you heartache all over again. Do you pray for them? I know these things seem impossible. You can easily love someone that you don’t know or someone that hasn’t affected your life. I understand how hard it is. It took me eight years to stop hating my ex husband. I now love him but love him in a Godly way. I pray for him and want God to bless him.

It wasn’t easy for me. It is hard to get to the point where we can love our enemies. Remember though, we can’t do it. We can only let God change us enough and allow Him to do it for us. So, the first step we can take to change the world is ours.

I challenge you to go up to someone that you don’t like and say to them ” I know we have had issues but I want you to know God loves you and so do I and I will be praying for you. See how they react, see how their face changes. Notice the difference it will make. Let your life be a proof for His love.

I hate waiting!!!


31 But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.

It is really hard for me to wait. I am not a patient person at all. When I was out looking for a job and got rejection after rejection, I cried out to God why? Here I was homeless, no money for gas, no money for food and God knew I needed a job but I was getting one. I have to admit. There were times I got angry at God. I shouted out at Him maybe even cussed at Him. I was desperate.

But Isaiah 40:31 doesn’t just tell us to wait, It gives us a promise from God that our strength will be renewed. We will not be weary or faint just by letting God do it in his time. That is hard to do when you feel desperate.

I waited and waited. All the time praying God you know my needs, I am trusting in your promise. A year later almost to the day I lost my job God gave me the perfect job. I love my job and I know that it is a job that is according to God’s perfect will.

I don’t know what each of you are going through. I do know that this world is a mess right now and unemployment is high. Maybe you are waiting on your marriage to heal or a sick loved one to get better. Don’t give up. God knows what he is doing in this situation. He has a plan. And while you are waiting, remember the strength will be provided by Him.

Come back I am not crazy, I am just Menopausal!!!!!

Lately I feel like I have this strange creature invading my body and mind. I have been trying to ignore it but it creeps up on me and sometimes at the weirdest and unacceptable moments (like during church services). First it messes with my mind; I can’t seem to remember where I am or what I am supposed to be doing. Then it messes with my body. I start to feel like my body was immersed in a pressure cooker. The steam begins to build up and rises and till BAM!!!! I am in a full fledge hot flash, and all I can think of is… how fast can I strip off these clothes. That is really not something you should be thinking in the sanctuary with 1500 people. Trust me if I did that half the congregation would be flocking to the alter and asking God to deliver me of the demon that has taken over my mind,  the other half of the congregation would be in a state of shock running out the doors and grabbing all their children from the horror. (Trust me no one should see me naked… I don’t even look)


Yes, it is true I am going through menopause. What this means to me is I am getting old. I do not grow old gracefully. I believe in all the plastic surgery you can afford to stay young and beautiful. (Obviously if you have seen my picture you realize I am poor because I haven’t had any) Honestly though, I believe in nipping, tucking, liposuctioning and dyeing anything you have too to stay young. It also helps a lot if you date guys 20 years younger than you (baby I am joking you beat any twenty year old)  Ok sorry I am back, I had to save my butt.   Any way where was I? *ponders for a second trying to recall last topic* Oh yes menopause. See I am already losing my mind and they say that’s the first to go.