Caught with Salt in Our Mouths

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Caught with Salt in Our Mouths

 “ With the tongue we praise our Lord and Father, and with it we curse human beings, who have been made in God’s likeness. 10 Out of the same mouth come praise and cursing. My brothers and sisters, this should not be. 11 Can both fresh water and salt water flow from the same spring? 12 My brothers and sisters, can a fig tree bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Neither can a salt spring produce fresh water.” James 3:9-12

 

I remember when I was little my Mom would say something nice about me then turn around and in the same breath criticize me. I didn’t understand how I could be a good girl but have all these bad traits. For me it was either black or white there was no gray area. Either I was a good person or a bad person. I still think that I am like that to this day, and thus, have a hard time when people try to give me positive criticism. I must admit though there has been times that I was caught with salt in my mouth. I am guilty!!

God is like that in the same way. He is black and white God. Either what comes from us is positivity or it is negativity. We can spring forth fresh water living water that encourages our brothers and sisters in Christ or nasty sea water that’s bitter and leaves a bad taste in their mouths. What about those that don’t know Christ? Does what we say (especially statements on social media) bring forth that fresh water that reflects the living water of Jesus Christ? Do we claim to have fresh living water in us, but spit out nasty salt water as many times as we do the other? We must always remember that our words are weapons, they can hurt, they can encourage, and they are the very essence of what we are thinking.

Lord I want my words to be fresh; I want them to reflect you, the God who has the endless stream of fresh
living water.

It’s not who we WERE but who we are BECOMING

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It has been a while since I’ve wrote anything in my blog but,  God has been pressing on my heart to get back to it. Blogging for me is not just therapy (which everyone that knows me knows how bad I need therapy) but it is also a way that I can minister to others and tell them about the good news and that news is that Jesus loves you!

The Empty Tomb

20 Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance. So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”So Peter and the other disciple started for the tomb. Both were running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. He bent over and looked in at the strips of linen lying there but did not go in. Then Simon Peter came along behind him and went straight into the tomb. He saw the strips of linen lying there, as well as the cloth that had been wrapped around Jesus’ head. The cloth was still lying in its place, separate from the linen. Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed(They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.) 10 Then the disciples went back to where they were staying.

Jesus Appears to Mary Magdalene

11 Now Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb 12 and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus’ body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot. 13 They asked her, “Woman, why are you crying?” “They have taken my Lord away,” she said, “and I don’t know where they have put him.” 14 At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus. 15 He asked her, “Woman, why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?” Thinking he was the gardener, she said, “Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him.”16 Jesus said to her, “Mary.” She turned toward him and cried out in Aramaic, “Rabboni!” (which means “Teacher”). 17 Jesus said, “Do not hold on to me, for I have not yet ascended to the Father. Go instead to my brothers and tell them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’” 18 Mary Magdalene went to the disciples with the news: “I have seen the Lord!” And she told them that he had said these things to her.

This Sunday is Palm Sunday and kicks off Holy Week. Easter is a wonderful day indeed. Jesus my Lord and Savior rose from the grave proving that He was Lord and the Messiah. But Easter also has another meaning to me. Easter 2012, was the day that I broke loose those chains and weights that were holding me down. Easter 2012 was the day I became free, the day I became alive again. All that hurt and pain from my past was gone and I became new again. Christ freed me of guilt, shame, grief, hurt, anger, depression and so many other things I kept hidden deep inside. Because a man, who I never met, let Himself be abused, beaten, then nailed on a cross till He died just for me, I can say that I am finally free to live. His love changed me that day.

I am different than I was the day before Easter 2012. I am not perfect. I am human and I still fail Him on a daily basis. At the beginning of 2014 my motto was “Don’t just believe in God but Believe God” that has now changed.  God keeps evolving me into the creature He wants me to be.  Every day my old self dies and my new self appears. Every day I get closer and closer to what He wants for me. With every metamorphous I have, God’s destiny for my life unfolds.

Jesus love was not mine alone, He died for all of us. This Easter remember that through His death we might live in freedom. When Jesus was resurrected from the dead so were we. Through His love and Grace we can become a new being, a person fully alive. Through shedding of His blood our old self, our old hurts, our old ways (thank God for His forgiveness) have become white as snow. So take heed to me new motto and use it. Take a hold of this freedom we have in Christ. Remember: It’s not who we were, but who we are becoming

 

 

 

 

Revenge not Taken

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Psalms 64

1Hear me, my God, as I voice my complaint;

protect my life from the threat of the enemy.
2Hide me from the conspiracy of the wicked,
from the plots of evildoers.
3They sharpen their tongues like swords
and aim cruel words like deadly arrows.
4They shoot from ambush at the innocent;
they shoot suddenly, without fear.
5They encourage each other in evil plans,
they talk about hiding their snares;
they say, “Who will see it?”
6They plot injustice and say,
“We have devised a perfect plan!”
Surely the human mind and heart are cunning.
7But God will shoot them with his arrows;
they will suddenly be struck down.
8He will turn their own tongues against them
and bring them to ruin;
all who see them will shake their heads in scorn.
9All people will fear;
they will proclaim the works of God
and ponder what he has done.
10The righteous will rejoice in the Lord
and take refuge in him;
all the upright in heart will glory in him!
In this Chapter of Psalms, we see David crying out to God. Saul was after him and he was hiding in the desert. If don’t know the story, The Israelites decided that they no longer needed a prophet but a King to rule over them. Samuel prayed for God to show him who should be the new King. Samuel anointed Saul as King of Israel. But as with most kings, Saul let all that power go to his head. Saul had the idea that David was after his crown so he went after David. David fled to the wilderness to escape Saul.
David could of fought Saul and killed him, but he knew that Saul was God’s appointed one. David was so close to Saul at one time, that he cut a piece of his robe off.
Ok so back to my point. How many times in our life do we feel like the enemy is attacking us. Recently I have been having an issue at work with some co-workers. They have it out for me. I have no clue why. The first thin that comes to my mind is how can I get them back. That nasty R word pops into my head. Revenge is such and evil thing. In the end everyone gets hurt. The more I simmered on the issue, the more God talked to my spirit. God led me to this chapter. David, as I said, could of killed Saul very easy. But, he decided to lay it in God’s hands. God spoke to my spirit and told me that He is the God of justice and He will protect His people.
I am not saying that will be easy to do. I want to go and tell my supervisor that these girls are not being nice to me. If I do that am I trusting God’s promise? I am a child of the Most High. What daddy will let injustice come to their child?
Prayer: Lord I can’t defend myself alone. I lay this situation and these people in your hands. i have the promise that You will defend me and protect me. I praise you my God. In Jesus name Amen.

All You Need is Love

Love%201%20Corinthians%2013%2013Yesterday I went to the funeral of my friend’s 19 year old brother. He was a god Godly man, he was doing the right things in his life and for no apparent reason he was gunned down and killed. As I sat there listening to the eulogy, and all the nice things everyone said about him, I can’t help think, what is this world coming too. There is so much hate.

1 Corinthians 13:1-3 gives us all an example of what God expects of us. Especially of Christians  “If I speak in tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love I am only a resounding gong or a clanging symbol. If I have gift or prophecy and can fathom all mysteries, and all knowledge, and I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I can boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.”

Wow, God tells us that we can be the best that we can be, we can help the poor, sing the most beautiful song, work in the church fervently in every ministry(I know you servants are out there cause I am one), and it all be for nothing if deep down you don’t have love in your heart.

So reading these words I ponder these thoughts:

Did the person who shot this young man, or the person who shot those kids in CT. ever see love in his life? The person at work that you can’t stand to be around, that has caused you so much strife, do you love them? Do you show them kindness and pray for them? That ex husband/wife that just won’t let it go, that causes you heartache all over again. Do you pray for them? I know these things seem impossible. You can easily love someone that you don’t know or someone that hasn’t affected your life. I understand how hard it is. It took me eight years to stop hating my ex husband. I now love him but love him in a Godly way. I pray for him and want God to bless him.

It wasn’t easy for me. It is hard to get to the point where we can love our enemies. Remember though, we can’t do it. We can only let God change us enough and allow Him to do it for us. So, the first step we can take to change the world is ours.

I challenge you to go up to someone that you don’t like and say to them ” I know we have had issues but I want you to know God loves you and so do I and I will be praying for you. See how they react, see how their face changes. Notice the difference it will make. Let your life be a proof for His love.

Made Perfect for Him

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In two weeks I will hit 45. I look in the mirror and I see an older woman looking back at me. For years I have struggled with my self image. I still do today. I was always the chunky girl in school. How many times did I hear “Carolyn you have such a pretty face, if you just lose some weight you would be such a beauty.”  These words didn’t come from strangers, I could of handled that. These words came from my family. The people that I wanted to love me more than anyone in my life. Those words have stuck with me my entire life. They made me feel that I could never measure up. It affected my social life, it affected my marriage and it affected the way I feel about myself.

How can we not, as women, think that what people see on the outside is what is important. The media exploits women in saying you have to be a certain body size or look to be considered beautiful. Woman of God, remember where you come from. We are daughters of the King. Children of the most high. If the saying is beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Let’s take  look at our what Father God considers beautiful.

1 Peter 3:3-4 “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes, rather it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of  gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.”

Is this saying that we shouldn’t fix our hair or wear makeup or jewelry. I personally don’t think so. What I think this verse is saying is that we need to focus on what we look like through our inner self. Are we beautiful on the inside? Are we kind to others? Are we compassionate? Are we women that follow after Jesus own heart?  I know you are thinking but Carolyn, how can I do that when I feel so bad about myself?  I know it is hard. It is a constant struggle I deal with everyday myself.  I love The Messages version of Ezekiel 16:8-14 it says:

“‘I came by again and saw you, saw that you were ready for love and a lover. I took care of you, dressed you and protected you. I promised you my love and entered the covenant of marriage with you. I, God, the Master, gave my word. You became mine. I gave you a good bath, washing off all that old blood, and anointed you with aromatic oils. I dressed you in a colorful gown and put leather sandals on your feet. I gave you linen blouses and a fashionable wardrobe of expensive clothing. I adorned you with jewelry: I placed bracelets on your wrists, fitted you out with a necklace, emerald rings, sapphire earrings, and a diamond tiara. You were provided with everything precious and beautiful: with exquisite clothes and elegant food, garnished with honey and oil. You were absolutely stunning. You were a queen! You became world-famous, a legendary beauty brought to perfection by my adornments. Decree of God, the Master.

I LOVE THIS!!! Don’t you get it. In the world we may not be perfect but through Jesus and His love, we became Queens, we became perfect… We are stunning!!! Why because Our Lord and Savior is perfect and He created us in His Image!!!  Praise God!!!!! Hold on to this.. take this into your heart… Let us all quit trying to please the world’s idea of beauty and focus on the One that made us perfect. It is then that you will shine. After all isn’t He the one we need to please most?

I hate waiting!!!

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31 But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.

It is really hard for me to wait. I am not a patient person at all. When I was out looking for a job and got rejection after rejection, I cried out to God why? Here I was homeless, no money for gas, no money for food and God knew I needed a job but I was getting one. I have to admit. There were times I got angry at God. I shouted out at Him maybe even cussed at Him. I was desperate.

But Isaiah 40:31 doesn’t just tell us to wait, It gives us a promise from God that our strength will be renewed. We will not be weary or faint just by letting God do it in his time. That is hard to do when you feel desperate.

I waited and waited. All the time praying God you know my needs, I am trusting in your promise. A year later almost to the day I lost my job God gave me the perfect job. I love my job and I know that it is a job that is according to God’s perfect will.

I don’t know what each of you are going through. I do know that this world is a mess right now and unemployment is high. Maybe you are waiting on your marriage to heal or a sick loved one to get better. Don’t give up. God knows what he is doing in this situation. He has a plan. And while you are waiting, remember the strength will be provided by Him.

He was thirsty, and so was I….

I have really been taking some time off and deciding where I wanted to lead this blog. I have really been praying about it and God has told me to take it in a new direction.

In the book of John chapter 4 it tells a story about a Samaritan women who was gathering water at the well. She chose to gather at the hottest time of the day, that way she would not encounter any other people. See, this woman had so many things going against her. She was an outcast to her people, the talk of the town. She had no respect from others or for herself. She had been with many men in her life and was not married to the one she was presently with. One day this man came up to her. She was surprised by this because after all she was no good anymore. He asked a simple question from her… Can I have a drink? What she didn’t know as she gave this man a drink, was that this man was Jesus of Nazarene. The Savior to all mankind. Where she thought she was giving him a simple drink, suddenly became him filling her up with an everlasting supply of the living water. This woman went home a new creature. She suddenly found joy and peace surpassing anyone’s understanding.

I know this woman personally. This woman is me. This woman is you. Male or female it doesn’t matter. When we get in with the Holy of Holies. When we discover the grace that is ours to take, when we realize that whatever was in our past is cleaned away but just merely asking Jesus into our heart and giving up all those past mistakes, when we finally understand how God’s love will surround us and engulf us, then like this Samaritan woman we can have joy and peace.

In this blog I will post bits and pieces of my own story along with what God is directing me to say. My goal here is to uplift him and be in obedience to Him. But maybe, with God’s guidance, I can help someone that is broken, that might want to just give it up, to find their way again.